Forward Ho

Down 1.2 this week to 158.4, so I'm pretty much back to where I was before I had that one weird huge drop a few weeks back and then screwed it up by gaining a lot for two weeks in a row. Heh.

I'm thinking about dropping my Weight Watchers subscription. I can count on one hand the number of times I've logged in over the last three weeks, and at least half of those have been simply to log my weight.

I don't go to meetings and my support group is my friends and family, so there's nothing to lose there. And the website simply isn't giving me much that I can use. I've been double-tracking my weekly weigh-ins on a spreadsheet anyway, and a spreadsheet I own myself can give me much more customized (and therefore useful) graphs and calculations. I occasionally hit the website for recipes -- but since I almost always rebuild the recipes a bit (to replace items we don't eat, or adjust serving sizes, or reduce carbs for Penny's sake) I usually have to recalculate the points anyway, so I can just switch to using the other gajillion-and-one diet recipe sites out there. I've hit all the big milestones I'm going to hit, so I'm not looking forward to the validation of little star icons. I'm not a forums person, I don't use their coupons to buy their food, and it's been ages since I've seen anything new or helpful in the advice columns.

I've been more or less maintaining my weight for the last three months. (Actually, over the last twelve weeks, I've been losing at an average rate of 0.2 pounds a week. I go down, I go up, I go down, I go up. Close enough.) I've been managing my food without tracking it for the last six weeks or so, and honestly, I think I've mostly got it. When I've gained weight, it hasn't been a mystery: I know exactly what I've done wrong and what I have to do to fix it.

The challenge for me now is to keep watching it and not let it slide. To keep stepping on the scale every morning and tracking it every week and screwing down my discipline when I've let things slide too much. But I don't really see the website helping with that.

I'm paid up for this month, but unless something happens to change my mind, I'll cancel before next month's payment is due.

Which, coincidentally, will be just in time to coincide with my 2-year diet anniversary.

Cringe

Apparently, I had too much fun at my cousin's wedding festivities. I'm up another 1.4 pounds, which tips me back over my red-light siren weight of 160, to 160.2. So starting today, I'm back to tracking every little thing I eat, and weighing and measuring everything, and trying to get back to the gym (though with the daycare closed both Friday and Monday, I'm probably not getting in my 3/week until the following week).

It's all very well to relax and overeat on special occasions, but I've been letting that relaxation slide into everyday life. Time to nip that in the bud.

(I'm hungry already.)